I still believe what they told me when I was a kid about how "humanity" "human" means being good, "humane", caring, I was raised believing it all the time and progressively as I realize I was so wrong I am losing my will to live more and more
me suddenly gaining self-consciousness and logical thinking capabilities the day I turn 18 (I still cannot drink alcohol but at least I can go to war and my void space out of nowhere turned into a monster cock)