surprisingly there's nothing online on how NOT to be mischievous
now that i think about it, i'm not sure what type of person i want to be or who i am as a person
i feel like the answer that brings me the most peace is that i'm a little piece of shit that hasn't grown up that likes causing a little bit of trouble for fun but doesn't like it the other way around
what exactly does it mean to actually mature and change as a person if i'm still deep down repressing a child who honestly likes stupid gross things to gross out others but ought not to out of consideration for others these days?
depression shouldn't be my sole factor causing me to be mature, but throughout my life, it has always been that way
@supersid333 the next question is probably how to find someone who's fine with not just my antics, but the other shit i'm into, considering it's the era of sensitivity
It would help if the anime defenders who roll up on anime disrespectors didn't have such awful taste in anime and designer waifus when contradicting them by posting such examples.
i had a dream where i was a musician, and i thought to myself, "could i use a loli as an instrument" and made them squeal, gasp, moan, shiver, squirt, and beg with my hands and dick, playing with her body and controlling the sounds that came out of her
luckily i was lucid enough to have the best experience in my life so far
i ended up finally leaving a troon-infested h-game server
it's always another day that ends in y where some member of the server is acting up
they're always so tired and surprised that one of their kin calls the game "lolipedo shit" or whine about not having a "trans" section in the porn categories
they're aware of how obnoxious the type of people they are, quite literally because they have to deal with their own bullshit, but they can't see it in themselves
it's a shame i even spent a year drawing everyone's character there
it was for the happiness of those who don't know how to be happy without it being spoonfed to them
i remember joining years ago, and seems like it was about half a decade ago more accurately
the server's landscape completely changed from when i first changed, for the worse
honestly maybe the warning signs was people beginning to take the "add pronouns?" to the rape game seriously
early on, it was dismissed, because a rapist isn't going to honor your bullshit (nor will the wolves, snakes, cats, night demons, dolphins, parasites, slimes, etc), but sometime afterwards it became a tba feature
and i've seen plenty of people notice that some of the content that implied or explicitly stated the player was underaged was quietly removed, and anyone who pointed it out was also silently removed for "calling the game a lolipedo game" or something along the lines of that
i'm also not sure why the server became an official partner with discord considering the game's material to begin with
only thing valuable to take from the entire five year experience was probably that troons, niggers, and kikes slowly infest the community, then when it gets too big to moderate for the initial team, apply to be a mod, and because most people are too lazy to mod, don't have a desire for that power, and/or don't want that responsibility put on them, eventually they're take over positions of power and change the landscape to be inhospitable to all but their kin, and the rest plays out like known patterns
i guess the first step is getting a driver's license
i don't have a car, i doubt my parking skills are good, particularly reverse and parallel, and taking a skill test while my head's fucked (and i doubt it'll get better easily within a month) is going to be something
and honestly, i'm not sure how this will make things better immediately, or at all
but i don't think my soul can endure another breakdown