@arisudotexe You are filled with the fire of actual community. :) (and filled Violet-goo as well!) You feel the magic and power of it!
I'd like to make a couple of suggestions, if that's okay.
First, start thinking about how to protect the thing that fate has given you. Be safe. Be armored. Be resistant. What you learn and do, others will copy to their benefit.
Second, start thinking about how to build new tools or infrastructure to allow others in MAPWorld an easier time getting to the social and emotional place you are in right now. If you build, others will use what you've built to their benefit.
Be safe, be quiet, speak in whispers, build in the dark. Keep hiding from those who hate us, but hide like a ninja rather than a rat. :)