surprisingly there's nothing online on how NOT to be mischievous
now that i think about it, i'm not sure what type of person i want to be or who i am as a person
i feel like the answer that brings me the most peace is that i'm a little piece of shit that hasn't grown up that likes causing a little bit of trouble for fun but doesn't like it the other way around
what exactly does it mean to actually mature and change as a person if i'm still deep down repressing a child who honestly likes stupid gross things to gross out others but ought not to out of consideration for others these days?
depression shouldn't be my sole factor causing me to be mature, but throughout my life, it has always been that way
@ninja8tyu There's nothing wrong with being a little mischievous, maturity is more about knowing the correct time and place to humor it then outright killing that part of yourself.
@supersid333 the next question is probably how to find someone who's fine with not just my antics, but the other shit i'm into, considering it's the era of sensitivity
reading calvin and hobbes again made me realize what life is all about: having fun
unfortunately i forgot how to have fun, and most of mine comes in the form of exercising one arm, maybe with some resistance holding a silicon weight from time to time
i don't think i want to scroll further, because i verified whether this was self-inflicted (a bunch of faggots complaining about it too much got it trending and made themselves more angry when it did) or reactionary (be it troll or real push to make this discussion real)
i had a dream where i was a musician, and i thought to myself, "could i use a loli as an instrument" and made them squeal, gasp, moan, shiver, squirt, and beg with my hands and dick, playing with her body and controlling the sounds that came out of her
luckily i was lucid enough to have the best experience in my life so far
i'd actually like to know where you can even use crypto and how stable it is as a currency anyway
because it's not exactly something backed by anything other than actual money, which is backed by debt (at least with USD)
for the argument, i also don't give a shit if transactions and crap are untraceable, and blah blah blah
you sure as fuck couldn't easily trace where all the potatoes you got scammed out of aside from the person's scent back in the old days, nor the gold, nor when the currency was made of actual precious metals
i quit youtube while i was having a mental fuck moment
but honestly, i realized sometime after quitting that if i could get laid within the span of months and come back with a video titled "got laid," it would be fucking hilarious
just,
>vtuber has mental breakdown
>quits youtube
>months pass
>comes back
>"i got laid"
i'm kinda incentivized to have a social life and find someone i can probably settle down with just for that punchline