@ninja8tyu no it was just retards still thinking red websites or whatever the fuck they were called were real run by cartels or something
When in reality you literally cannot load a video on the tor network let alone live stream on garbage connection
i remember why being a youtuber/vtuber interested me to begin with as well
i saw funny clips and moments of just having fun, and i thought, "i wanna experience that too!" and maybe i'd also find people who i can always have fun with too
instead i get some gay parasocial fan, some guy on kick that stalks whenever i stream to spam random insults, weird idolization of what i believe, and learning how monotonous humanity is
@LolikingSama@ninja8tyu the fucking mentality behind giving fake smiles is so stupid. I'm gonna help that customer get what they want to the best of my ability as long as they're not being a dickhead, why do I have to fake emotions on top of it?
Customers always loved me and were always super polite even without me acting like that so there's literally no fucking point.
@Kyonko802@ninja8tyu that's what I'm saying too. I used to have regulars that would ask for me personally without all of that fake smile BS. I hated seeing people do it too. Like you CAN have a personality while working customer service lol.
had a dream i was playing some stick war wizard game, got raped by a witch because i ran out of mana, woke up after some fun, looked up some loli hentai, saw dora the explorer, left, checked kemono for some paid content, saw one of the posts was titled "tenma scat comm," left, and i'm now here
surprisingly there's nothing online on how NOT to be mischievous
now that i think about it, i'm not sure what type of person i want to be or who i am as a person
i feel like the answer that brings me the most peace is that i'm a little piece of shit that hasn't grown up that likes causing a little bit of trouble for fun but doesn't like it the other way around
what exactly does it mean to actually mature and change as a person if i'm still deep down repressing a child who honestly likes stupid gross things to gross out others but ought not to out of consideration for others these days?
depression shouldn't be my sole factor causing me to be mature, but throughout my life, it has always been that way
@ninja8tyu There's nothing wrong with being a little mischievous, maturity is more about knowing the correct time and place to humor it then outright killing that part of yourself.
@supersid333 the next question is probably how to find someone who's fine with not just my antics, but the other shit i'm into, considering it's the era of sensitivity